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I fought

the thought

the notion

like an ocean

it seemed to engulf me

I really knew

the view

into that abyss

was maybe not a pleasant

one

walking alone

flipping small stones

across the water

I oughta know better

the fresh crisp scent

of autum in the air

leaves fallen everywhere

like my emotional

well-being

seeing little

of my surrounding

landscape

I had come here

to escape

my worry

no hurry here

almost timeless

the messy visions

like the proverbial

sugar plums

while faeries danced thru my head

led by a nagging

doubt

almost a shout

rumbling thru my

discomfited

reverie

I knelt down..to pick at

a "last one of fall" flower petal

my heart felt like it was

entombed in a metal

caseing...

standing up,

I began pacing again

slowly walking on

I heard a fawn deer

somewhere near

traipsing

as they are wont to do,

trying to escape being someones

trophy or dinner

would it be a winner?

WOULD I>?

NEW LOVE
can be oh so hard

the wonder, the mystery

the uncertain things...

ahhhh...

sometimes your heart sings

sometimes its just fraught

with the history

of previous loves gone horribly

wrong

sometimes a VIBRANT love song

sometimes not

sometimes a spot of champagne

sometimes a glass of something

almost not drinkable...

unthinkable...

a virtual roundtable of emotions

cascading....

feelings

dealings

going on within

that silly thing

called your heart

that frequently does part company

with right good sense

DO YOU BUILD A FENCE?

or an open door?

do you want less, or more?

what does HE want?

A fun night?

or forever..

always?

or never?

will he come to play?

or to stay?

will YOU be the ONE for him?

he for you?

AHHH>>

NEW

SO NEW

and so I find myself out here

lost in thought

a fraught with danger time

excitement

anticipation

longing

longing to BE..

belonging.,.

needing....

WHAT?

A TIME OF REFLECTION

of meditation

of anticipation

of waiting

waiting for .....

MORE?

MORE?

less?

what a mess my heart is right now

I walk on,

alone,

and wonder........

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