Monday, July 2, 2007
As highly charged as a third rail
As welcome as a long-awaited letter in the mail...
You are all of these.
If it please you to just smile at me,
It would, I know, set me completely free...
from all the plain, mundane, sad, bad things...
that can and do happen to the best of us...
Do I fuss too much?
Such is the way of me, I guess...
as I sit here, almost overwhelmed by the wonder
that is you...
and through the long to be spent years,
as you wipe away my tears,
shake off all the fears that would consume this one,
through the fun, joy and times we celebrate,
with you, I would never feel second-rate...
and as i stand finally at heaven's gate,
i would say
because I could say,
it was worth it all...
THAT is the essence of just who you are.
A star...to shine...always...
Essences C 2007
Friday, June 29, 2007
DIME A DANCE -
The Saga of
Frankie and Tess
Book 1 - Part 2 / The Plan
From Chapter 7...
"Howard and I have something to tell you two sweet boys," she said, looking from Frankie to Kenny and back.
"Yes, mom?" Frankie and Kenny said simultaneously…while holding hands under the table and squeezing said hands and also while trying to keep from fainting. Pretty quickly, their brows began to show beads of anticipatory “fear-dew!” Yep. Something told both of them this was not going to go well. They looked at their mother and gave sidelong glances to each other, and also to Howard who was looking singularly uninvolved in the calamity that was about to unfold. That, of course was his well-worn chosen path…after years of having been married to Elke.
"Honey! Both of you Honey’s!”
Elke flashed her biggest smile…"Howard and I…are…in!
That's what you need to know, and BOYS! NOTHING ON THIS EARTH is going to keep us from helping you. We just need to know where you want us to go…and what you want us to do! Where do we…
Uh, what's that word Howard? Oh yes!
IN – FIL – TRATE!”
Elke accentuated each syllable just so her sons wouldn’t miss her meaning. Then she settled back in her chair and proceeded to just sit there…all smiling and self-confident and,
for lack of a better word, looking SPUNKY!
Frankie, totally taken aback, lost his grip and then very unceremoniously and very very ungracefully; he fell off his chair. ALWAYS the take-charge type, that boi. ALWAYS in control. Yep yep. He had turned absolutely white and literally fell off his chair, while Kenny gasped.
Yep, these were definitely S U P E R H E R O' S! No question.
I'm sure the director of the FBI would be beaming with pride at these two hardcore WOOSIES right about now.
Frankie was looking pretty sheepish as he struggled to get back up into his chair. Eric looked down at him and thought to himself, "Oh God! If that is all it takes…”
Then Eric looked at Kenny who had gone as white as a sheet. You could hear a pin drop in that room about then, and through it all? Elke just continued to merely sit there, looking all SPUNKY!; (As I sat and watched all this, there wasn’t a scintilla of doubt in my mind. Not only did Elke know exactly what she had just done, she was now reveling in the results. No dummy she.
Frankie wanted to die, and Kenny wanted to help him and then commit suicide.
"Mom! You can’t…I mean…uh, oh God. Frankie, say something for God's sake..
DAD! Please. Talk to her!"
(Howard was obviously being no help at all…for he had learned over the years that when Elke made up her mind, she just jolly well made up her mind and that was that. Period!)
"FRANKIE!" Kenny was pleading now. "Mom. What ARE you talking about?" Frankie said after finally finding his voice.
"I am talking about helping my two little boys of course…and their, uh, ‘friends.’ What kind of parents would we be if we weren't there for our own children when they obviously need us. Right, Howard?"
Frankie went white again. Kenny turned even whiter, and it got REAL quiet…as Elke just sat there looking all SPUNKY!
(A bit smug, too…if you ask me. But then nobody did so I just thought it!)
Frankie looked at Kenny. Kenny looked at Frankie, and then at Tess, who was looking a bit peaked herself. Then Frankie looked at his shoes and then at Eric. Then back to Tess, and then he looked back to Kenny.
Then at his shoes again. "I need new ones!" Frankie thought to himself... "OH GOD!"
Then Frankie looked at Billy Ray and then pleadingly at Rose, who looked back at Frankie with a “gotcha” gleam in her eye, who looked at Jake, who looked at Elke and, to Frankie's surprise, smiled.
"By God, the woman has…SPUNK!” Jake thought to himself.
Frankie still didn't have too good a grip on that chair he was in, and Kenny was about squeezing the life out of Frankie's hand under the table. In fact, he was coming periously close to completely cutting off all of the circulation in it!
Kenny just looked at his mother…and what he saw was SPUNK and determination.
"Oh God...not that, Mom! Oh please, Mom…not THAT look,” Kenny thought to himself…for he knew Elke when she got “determined.” In fact, both of her sons knew ‘that look’ only too well.
Then, Billy Ray, who had been totally silent throughout the whole exchange, said, "Mrs. Mc Alester, welcome aboard! You too, sir,” as he directed his gaze to Howard.
Frankie and Kenny looked at Billy like he had taken
TOTAL leave of his senses and had just totally lost it. Gone mad…stark raving mad.
Then, Jake, who had also been quiet, said, "I echo that…and by God those damn mugs better know one thing. You DON’T mess with mama Bears when their cubs are endangered...trust me! I got a mom too, ma'am…and I wouldn't tangle with that woman, at gunpoint…'specially if she’s the one holding the gun!”
Elke sat, smiling.
Yep. Elke has spunk all right, and she knew exactly what Jake meant even if she didn’t know his mama. Elke didn't have to know her. Yep, Elke had spunk all right, and we were gonna find that out, too. BIG TIME!
Frankie felt nauseous and Kenny felt numb. By now so was Frankie's hand…and before anyone else could say anything, another entry came galloping into the mix.
“Oh God! “ I thought, while laughing to myself. She nodded to me, and I said..."Mornin', Ofelia!"
Frankie fell off his chair again, which was getting a bit tedious…not to mention painful. Kenny thought he was gonna throw up. Rose, being a woman and fervently so sat beaming!
“O KAY! YEP, YEP! This is gonna be a real humdinger," Rose thought to herself. Billy Ray sat smiling and thinking the same thing.
Eric, at that point, began to wonder at exactly what point he had completely lost control of this entire operation. Perhaps his superiors had been right, but it was a teeny bit late for that! Mentally, he began the suddenly painful mental process of adjusting to these new circumstances. Rosie heard him sigh.
HELL, the entire planet heard him sigh. She saw him roll his eyes and she knew he was thinking…and WHAT he was thinking was..."Oh, dear Lord,” and he began to reflect on the time he had felt bullets whizzing over his head…and how much simpler that seemed now. "Oh, dear Lord...please!"
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Monday, June 4, 2007
going on simultaneously.
and HEAR the rumbling
and SENSE the rumbling..
obvious in ITS intensity...
in a way...
I could feel his gentleness too.
GET IT DONE and go on' side.
be able to multi-task almost to perfection
"The moments of happiness we enjoy take us by surprise.
It is not that we seize them, but that they seize us."
- Ashley Montagu
*"AFTER THE RAIN"
Music and Lyrics by Dustybear
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Sunday, June 3, 2007
broken by the howl
without a mate
please be kind
to this boi
and let OUR joy
through the night
I fight the tears
that like rivulets of
burns my cheeks
with their flow
Will SOMEBODY GO...
find him for me please?
so his love can
while I hover
I can feel my heart RACE
at the thought
I just bought
this box of tissue
Issue me two more
for my tears
have hit the floor
One, two...many times
Crimes of passion
should be happening
How do I get it across
to this my would be mate
that our fate needs to...BE
We can be free
I'M in NEED
Okay, I'm through,
and I await
and your heart
I'm sooo blue
Then let this be a HOWLING success.
Save me, too.
Enslave me, enrapture,
and race for the grand prize
If you were a road, I'd want to travel it
til I could find you with my eyes closed
Sensual, HOT...and hosed down
to lessen the heat...
Ream the Dustybear...
and I swear
I'll be none the worse for wear
Heart and soul.
You are the song I long to sing
'til I know every word
and every note
as if I wrote every line
I'm doing fine,
after a word or two
That would make my day..
You came to play
and now I'd love for you to stay
my heart and soul
without your fire
Come, take me higher
fill my cup
and let the love that binds us
'til the river takes us, sometimes rough.
to its ebb and though
I CAN make it without you
what a bum
stoke the fire
and let the waves of crimson
move us higher than we ever thought
Knock on wood
I'd be your BEST dude
and our interlude
would be truly SOMETHING
Bring your BEST birthday suit
Whatever it is would suit me fine
Hope the grand prize is not you...
okay, fuss at me now...
LISTEN TO THE QUIET
You can almost hear two hearts
tah dum..,tah dum...
Strum me like a guitar...
how far...we could carry this tune
and LET THE MUSIC PLAY...
Hey baby, come save me.
Read me all those sweet lines like a vibe...
Just slide into my soul like
Start...to beat out of control
Fight...to keep these dreams alive.
It's you I miss...kiss.
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There's an endless story
There's the dude I chose
There's my territory
My story starts there
and ends wherever
and all the good things
that he might deserve
I will never reserve
He's worth all the money
He is my sunny day
and in every way
he is my Honeybear
can I bear life without his love?
Shove me in the furnace
and melt me down to an ash
smash my face
race over with me wth a herd
so low would I be
without that boi who sets my heart free
and only he
can pilot my light
and bring me to flight
all through every night
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